Tell Me How To Grieve Poem by Maria Sudibyo

to my uncle

tell me how to grieve my love
tell me how to cry out sorrow
I can only remember your smile
I only know you alive

teach me how to wail my love
teach me how to bleed my heart
last time I saw you pick your own salad
with your shaking crippled hand
I thought how old you are now
how fragile you are
I hope the fall's still far away
but you only smile and calm

tell me how to paint it blue
tell me how to live without you
I can only remember your smile
I only know you'll be there somewhere