Temporary Ups And Forever Downs Poem by toxicity ryan adams

i think im okay
on this particular day
i dont want to die
and say screw it all and get high
i would want to say im happy
but im not sure what that is really
i have my seldom temporary ups
where i dont feel like giving up
most of the time im forever down
and always feel like i cant make a sound
so i write these poems, too many of them
so i can be heard without even a hum
hoping maybe someone will read
all these poems i keep
not someone like a relative
someone else maybe someone sensitive
maybe a friend though i dont have many of those
because most of them are preppy bimbos
couldnt someone think about me
not for long just temporarily
long enough to read a couple lines
then theyll get it, my silent cries
this is my plead for help, my painful asking
please reach out, wont someone help me