The Absurdity Of Life Poem by Sheldon Carruthers

I wish for death but it will not come
I long for my father but he is gone
I care for my future but still I can't find it and the present is bare
what will end this torment I hardly can care
What words of comfort that comfort me not
has God forgotten me or am I to rot
For hell seems real and heaven afar
I'm waiting for something but I don't know what for
is life just a joke played to be cruel
or am I taking a test in language foreign and new
for I am down and I am blue I am depressed and I am a fool