The Anonymous Soliloquy Poem by Margaret Alice

I write
to unravel my mind
to clear the chambers of my conscience
to sing a song that won’t disturb those
who never want to listen
when I adore a tune and want to share
the emotion with a loved one –
who isn’t there

I need to organise my thoughts and feelings
to classify and pack away new information
cleaning unsolved anger and festering wounds

I want to share my fears, emotions, tears
unfounded joy and secret hates
with another mind – anonymously
because in one-to-one conversation
I have thus far failed abominably
and I daily fear I would find a tear
in the new fabric of this anonymous soliloquy
– or even worse – that it would be stopped
that silence would return to my mind
until I am as lonely as before –
maybe even more
for the pain of
loss