The Anorexic Poem by Tanith Ayesha

I look in the mirror and what do I see?
A fat reflection looking at me,
everybody says I'm to thin,
But all I see is fat within,
I know, I have no self-esteem,
To love my body is but a dream.

I hate my body, I hate myself.
I see fat, and failure, and nothing else,
I see a worthless person deep inside,
And in this person, I see no pride,
I feel low, unhappy, yet in control,
I know in life, food plays no role.

This fills me with pleasure, control is mine,
I smile I feel fine,
I look at the plate and turn my head,
Yet in doing this I know, I could soon be dead,
So I look at the food, can my stomach I fill,
Can I admit, that I am ill?