The E-Mail Poem by Elik Rain

A moment before you feel vertigo
Pulling at your insides you know
There's no way to hide from this-
Even a bold statement in enlarged font
Flashing its hideous highlights
Would suffice.

I wish not to venture deep into
This realm of uncertainty
For fear of incompetence
And a choke at the back
Of my neck;
All those red-tinged moments
Suddenly merge into one.

Blood insistent and furious
Thuds against enclosed rib-bones
As I mouse over those secret blue lines-
Nothing can be as invigorating
As ferocious-
The jaws snapping at my feet
Suddenly double back with twice the force-
A crushing weight of failure.

How can I attempt to become
One with the present
If I can't bear to face
My past?