The Fear I Felt; Yes I Knew. Poem by Hailey Agnew

wow.
what happened?
everything was perfect,
is this the end?
all i ever wanted to do was complete a book before i died,
deep down i loved everyone,
deep deep down inside.
even if i lied.
even while i cried.
all i ever did was love him,
all i ever wanted was for him to love me back.
i wasted so much time,
i wasted time worrying about what i lacked,
not what i had.
my life was actually pretty rad.
until then,
when the stranger came.
when he scared me half to death,
without even caring to learn my name.
would he come back?
would i be just another picture on the milk carton?
would i be filed as a missing child?
would my body be found broken and rotten?
stolen of purpose and life,
at the age of 13?
used and forgotten,
dead in a ditch until the cops came?
would i be put in the paper?
would anyone ever know i knew,
what was coming for me,
would anyone ever know i knew the truth?
was it true?
was the fear i felt justified?
if i ever told anyone my feelings,
would they think i lied?
could this premonition be right?
is it intuition,
paranoia,
or insight?
am i just scared,
with a wild imagination?
if i die tomorrow,
i get no reincarnation.
if i die tomorrow,
let this be my goodbye,
to let you all know i knew,
i was soon to die.
the best i could wish for,
was he wouldn't rape me before he killed me,
and there would be minimal pain,
very little blood to be seen.
goodbye,
i really loved you all so much,
whether i die tomorrow,
or whether i escape untouched.