The Final Words Dedicated To My Best Friend! ! Part #1 Poem by Tyna Marie

Who are you?
What are you?
Do I even know?
You just wondered off into
a cloud of smoke.
You used to be a friend of
mine.
Something I couldn't leave behind!
But now? That all has changed.
A division of my life now rearranged.
You told me I meant everything.
That I was your on true friend.
How can all of that come to such a sudden end?
Do you feel secluded?
Shoved away from the real world?
Should I be the one that for your feeling I'd unfurl?
My worry is driving me over the edge.
Did you really make your final bed?
Josh is talking about finding you dead.
My heart has now turned to steel.
Now I guess I know how you feel.
But I hope you know what you took away,
My strength to just walk away!
Because now I worry of what you did!
Please tell me you just ran and hid...
Because I don't to say good-bye...
To someone that helped me stay alive.
You have killed my trust in you.
Now it's you I see straight through.
The truth is I walked away.
I know I killed you in some way.
Your mom may be psychotic,
but your running was idiotic.
You are now my narcotic.
I hate you right now.
That I hope you know.
I hate frome your head to toe.
But at the same time I feel love and I hope you get a shove.
Because I don't want to lose the man I know!
You never gave any other options,
to those who might've wanted.
You just shoved them up against a wall.
I guess it made you not feel so small.
I may not be with you in a boyfriend- girlfriend kind of way,
but I do have the right to say
that I do love you as more than a friend.
I'd stay by your side until the very end.
But now the guilt is on my shoulders.
You are gone from inside of me.
But I promise I never will forget.
All of the fights, smiles, and complications that I never will regret.
Yesterday I turned away.
What else was there to do?
I'm not looking to lie I swore I'd tell the truth.
Yesterday? You scared me.
You took the faith away.
For now I'll sit here and wonder,
and hope to God that you're okay.