The Fisherman Poem by amber roser

How could they not?
It is just an inescapable given
that they would find you irresistible.
One after the other, or several at a time
they would come to try and claim you
none knowing at the start that it was all futility.


The half hearted grew bored with their frustration
they never lasted long.
The selfish could never share you
they threw their hands up
and moved on.
The ones i really felt for,
i still feel for them,
were the ones who truly loved you.


Those for whom the thought that they could share
let them persevere
only to find that the hearts they gave to you
would never be exchanged for all of your own.


Still they sought for that elusive prize
that would make all the effort, all the compromise,
every salt laden tear absolved and forgotten.
The hoped for reward
that kept them captive - so captivated.
This sustained them in your absence
in the cold dead nights when you were gone.
In the nights when that little voice would whisper
the truths that could not be borne.


These ones i watched fade away
a little at a time
until the hardiest was no more than an emptied shell
drained of every laugh, every smile,
all light extinguished
but still the hope remained
or rather the hope was all that remained
the reality too horrific to confront -
that all they had given - lost - wrenched from themselves to give to you
was in vain
and she would always come first.


She who could pull you from any arms
any place
any time
and you would run to her,
forever you will run to her.


But i knew and know
so i remain whole.
More than whole
because i know you give me what you will never give anyone else
what no-one else could take.
You give me what is left - what she lets you keep
and would they accept
that they could never have you all
they would find the bliss and peace and safety and sleep
enshrined in the way that you look at me
that fills me and makes me.


And i know it.
But they don't.
So she and i share a secret smile,
a twisted joke that only we can get
Because she is only the sea
and i am the only girl in your heart.
i know and you know.
and you love me, and i love you.
i love you papa x x x