The Hardest Words To Speak Poem by Audrey Marie Kay

I walked upstairs so i could puke
the alcohol rushing through my veins.
sitting on the cold floor i shook
all i knew was i was sick and ashamed

the party downstairs felt so far away
as i got up to walk back down
i saw him in the door way
i asked him to move but he frowned

He turned around and locked the door
i backed up as he came into me
he shoved me down hard on the floor
i tried to get away but he had the key

i got up and he smiled an evil smile
grabbed me by my neck and kissed my lips
i spat his kiss back; tasted so vile
then he grabbed me and shoved his fist in my hips

i tried to scream but my breath was gone
his hand was hunting down my breasts
he told me he just wanted some fun
He threw me down onto the hard bed
im pretty sure i got a good hit at him
but he quickly got control; and im red
my eyes are going black; heavy
as the bed bangs against the wall
im shaking but his breath is steady

the end to my story is not happy
so i wont finish it for you now
Maybe in another day
but for right now i have to cry
because all i can think about is that night
he pounded me
and made me bleed
and took my blood
placed it on my body
his hand prints forever seen
by my memories

im sorry.. i just dont have the courage to finish this right now
it hurts to much for the details it entails