The 'Me' I See And The 'Me' I Can Be Poem by Rebecca Pepper

I look at you and I hate what I can truly be
There's something I just can't let them see
But you are the only one that can call me out
The only one that can tell me what to think about

My bones are twisted in the most atrocious of ways
My heart warped more than these lies can ever say
I see the flame that burns so bright, beautiful eyes
Even more sanctified with the tears which mark your cries

Yet you stand by my side, solemn in forced acceptance
And with mingled blood we show our disturbed repentance
You wrap me in a warm embrace as I relive our demise
I won't stop because only this blood can ever satisfy

I watch, trapped within my contorted, clouded mind
As a being takes over my body, a body I can't find
It rips through such snow like skin, where do I begin?
At the end I wake and I scream as I relish in our sin

You say I'm not to blame, no more than my past
But I can never tell how long this bliss will last
Until the ‘me' that I can't see chains me once again
And I shower you in blood red pain, once more insane