The Pain Poem by Ray Hansell

The pain is real
The pain is deep
Relief is all
I ever seek
I wake up nights
Drenched in sweat
Peaceful dreams
I never get
The nightmares take control
I don't know how much more
I'll be able to take
I wish my demons would go out the door
But they never leave me
They live inside my soul
I feel they'll forever stay
Even as I grow old
Maybe an exorcism
Can help to get me through
Other then that
I don't know what to do
You see all my problems
Are from when I was a child
It was a nasty neighbor
Who took away my smile
So many times I see his face
Just before he dies
I hear him plead
I can hear his cries
But I turn a deaf ear
Just like he did to me
Seeing him in pain
Sets a part of me free
I watch him die slowly
Like I've been doing for years
That's why you see
I'm not moved by his tears
I never wished death on anyone
But on him I do
I know you maybe understand
If it's never happened to you
I know people say, forgive and forget
But that's something I can't do
Why does it seem to always be
People that you trust
The way I feel inside
Like I've just been hit by a bus
I hope someday to be better
But I don't know when that will be
But right right I know
When I look in the mirror
Many times I don't like what I see

1-13-10/RJH


The pain is real
The pain is deep
Relief is all
I ever seek
I wake up nights
Drenched in sweat
Peacefull dreams
I never get
The nightmares take control
I don't know how much more
I'll be able to take
I wish my demons would go out the door
But they never leave me
They live inside my soul
I feel they'll forever stay
Even as I grow old
Maybe an exorcism
Can help get me through
Other then that
I don't know what to do
You see all my problems
Stem from when I was child
It was a neighbor
Who took away my smile
So many times I see his face
Just before he dies
I hear him plead
I can hear his cries
But I turn a deaf ear
Just like he did to me
Seeing him in pain
Sets a part of me free
I watch him die slowly
Like I've been doing for years
That's why you see
I'm not moved by his tears
I never wished death on anyone
But on him I do
I know you don't understand
If it's never happened to you
Why does it seem to always be
People that you trust
The way I feel inside
Like I've just been hit by a bus
I hope someday to be better
But I don't know when that will be
But right right I know
When I look in the mirror
Many times I don't like what I see

1-13-10/RJH