The Silent Scream Poem by bethany hubbard

outside you see me smileing
and floathing through each day
a little tired a little thin
but overall ok
but you dont heat my anguished though
which surface every night
they plage me haunt me torment me
til im too weak to fight
and so next day i come to school
with deeply shadowed eyes
i smile laugh and speak on cue
living a pack of lies
a silent scream echoes inside reaction to my lies
til with no warning it erupts
and i crumble down and cry
come find me help me make it stop
for if you come i've no control
over the words i say
cant you hear my silent scram
decipher what i hide
so come and ask me what is wrong
come sit down by my side
if nothing else then please read through
this tangled web i weave
for you are really not the one
im trying to decieve
help me i dont know what i want
please hold me let me cry and say
somehow you will make it all right
perhaps deep down i know whats wrong
what keeps me up a wake
what is the scouce of all my tears
and ever-there heartache
but not yet can i face it
or mabe i just wont
please someone help me understand