The Sound I Never Want To Hear... Poem by Tina Ozolins

The sound I never want to hear
Is the sound of Satan coming near
Although you can not hear him
You can see him in the light of dim.
His spirit was broken into right and wrong
Waiting until I had left the safety of my throng
His eyes were the colour of death
Black and red, this was the tenth
Feature that caught my eye
It was this feature that could make me die
With nothing but a flick of his wrist and
A nod of his head, I could crumble like a pile of sand
All loose and torn, like something soft and grand
With nothing left apart from a finger from my hand
In too much agony, I could only hear him laugh
Tearing at my soul like a hungry new born calf
Even though I beg and cry
There is still a reason for me to try
And plead for another day
Even if he throws it away
For I thought love was strong enough to save
Me like a ledge saves a cave
Even when I thought I was loved I was wrong
My heart fought that meanful song
Until it could fight the song no more
Satan chopped my heart open with a circular saw
But I can not leave this world without a fight
Even though I have been robbed of my sight
Satan has made me blind without many senses
His spirit flows through me like different cancers
Tearing at things that I never knew I had
Feeling my pain makes me sad
But without feelings I do not care
If my body gets a frightful scare
I thought you would be there to help me through
My most difficult time, was when I could throw
My hands for the last time around your now cold neck
But with you I feel I’m standing on a run down deck
And now you’ve gone, taking my soul and heart
Flying faster than a sharp dart
Making me cry a thousand tears
Per every time you change gears
We were friends than we were lovers
Pushing and pulling for the covers
But Satan decided to poison our minds
With lies from different kinds
Such as you were cheating, which I could not believe
You would do such a thing but I did grieve
For my believing you would do something which hurt
But I know now that I treated you like dirt
I wish you were here and could forgive
Me before Satan can give
Everyone else a reason to mourn
That my life had been thrown away with a scorn
For now I know not where you are
For all I know you could be driving your car
Without a careful thought in the world
Even if I’m dying slowly without a word
So now after I have thought thing threw
I beg Satan to end this shrew
I beg him to make it quick
So I could be dead before a burning stick
And this is all I have to do
I have to say that ‘I love you! ’
That’s all that I needed to say
I hope I made your precious day
When I say goodbye for the last time
It will cost you nothing but a dime
Goodbye for now, my love, I’ll see you soon
When you decide you were over the moon
For my love and mind
And you’ll die to see me again
So goodbye my love and goodbye my darling!