The Truth Behind Her Eyes Poem by Diana Kouprina

We all wear masks but no one told me
I didn't know it was a secret
I just wanted to blend in when I met you
I didn't know you would steal my light
That burned deep inside
I didn't know how you saw me through those deep brown eyes.
It took years to see the truth
Who you were beneath the mask
I didn't know the mask you wore
Was masterfully crafted of bits and pieces of my identity.
You knew, you always knew
But never told me
That the person I wanted to be like most
Was me, after all this.

Sometimes I wish I never met you
I wonder how my life would have been
But there you were in class one day
The new popular girl
With too much blush.
I was clinging in on,
I had just survived never to be the same again.
You preyed upon me
The wounded animal
And piece by piece made me forget
You became me the mask you wore
It was me and there I was
Trying to copy you, never seeing
That you were me and I was you.

We all wear masks but you didn't tell me
You wore it always around me
And I never wore a mask near you
I showed you truth and in awe of you mimicked the way you flipped your hair
And the way you did your make up
When creating my mask for the outside world of strangers.
Always knowing I could never be.
But you didn't tell me
That behind your mask you had no feelings
Your pure existence was all a game
A game of power and control over me and others, anyone willing to fall for the tales you spun.

Sometimes I wish I never met you, I wonder who I would have been.
Sometimes I wish I never met you, but,
Than again I wouldn't be me,
The unmasked version of myself
For the outside world to see.
The transparent version
Of the soul for all to see.
Sometimes I wish I never met you,
But than I wouldn't be me
The one today,
Rooted from within,
A place I was always meant to be,
If I had never met you,
I wouldn't be who I am today.
But sometimes, I wish I never met you,
I wonder who I would have been.

©️Diana Kouprina