Thomas Poem by Mallory Horne

You are the gas in the air, and you’re killing me.
All the things we went through go through me,
I didn’t think it was possible to hate someone so much.
But I’ve apparently been wrong with everything about you.

So take out your needle in me, I don’t need your drugs anymore!
The crack in you is what I fell for,
The drugs linger in me.
Now my eyes are false like yours and my mind is in pieces,
No one ever said it would be like this

Why’d you always have to go when I needed you the most?
I cried every night, and you weren’t there to comfort me.
When people came over you said to blame the smell on burnt toast,
But they stopped believing me when they found out about you

Every now and again I’ll catch myself, missing you.
Your smell, your presence, your everything.
Then I’ll realize that you’d rather be stiffing glue,
Strangers even could still feel that sting.

Now there’s nothing left of what we were,
No trace, no evidence, no room for a cure.
Just the stunning pain of love and breaking up,
Nothing in the wild could tame you not even a pup.

So your addiction takes hold of your entire life,
I left you because I was afraid of that happening.
‘Its not worth it, please I beg you put down the knife.’
You’ve made me a fallen angel with shattered wings.