Those Four Walls Poem by Carlton Kennedy

I don't want to live in these four walls, i want to live beyond the structure of rules and ridicule, I want to be able to sacrifice my unhappiness for happiness, rid the void of uncertainty where i will know what i want to do and who i want to be...
As i flick through the pages of my present life, i see all but fragments of torn scribbled out sentences of what i thought i should have been...
the front page always carefully written as 'who i am' but not understanding the vast structure of false promises i said to myself...
what is it i want i thought, i think of what i want and how to get it, nothing comes to mind much... just thick moments of silence fills my mind as i ponder my unpleasant unrest in my head....
Those four walls keep my sane but make me fragile, they make me sick but let me hide.... seeking more but never noticing what i have, thinking big but feeling small....
I'm board now so i sleep and dream of many incredible moments that im not able to recall when i wake.