To Be Me Again Poem by Crazy Vampire

one day i'm fine the next i'm not
i am a beautiful fruit that will soon begin to rot
if i don't fix my broken heart inside
then another day will follow by too much pride
i feel i am meaningless and i think there is no hope for me
i want to run and be free
to see the clouds over me replaced by the warming sun
i want to laugh again and know the meaning of fun

i can't find myself in this maze
my memory of who i am is beginning to fade
i try to grasp on to reality but my past holds onto me
i try to let go but it's harder then it seems
to push aside that terrible event
it's like asking God to let an angel be sent,
down to the depths of hell to convince satan to turn good
in front of God i wish i stood
so i must resist temptation to not do this deed
i was a good girl who turned into a bad seed

at the age of 8 i lost my true innocence
i tried to forgive and forget
i'm screaming i'm shouting and no one hears me
they judge me based on what they see
but they don't understand and see the inner me
they see a smart girl, who may be kind of nerdy
but the truth is i'm tired of life and tired of hurting.