To Whom It May Concern Poem by Vickey Alexander

In my after-struggle to understand myself
and figure life all out,
I've come to know that this life is mine, by design

I forgive you... for you too are stuck in your own world
with your own reason for being here, for being you.

I see the cords that still bind us flailing in the winds.
They are thin, loose and worn.
Noncommittal, with occasional tuggings from your side.

I say I love you, but out of duty
not from my heart
I lost that a long time ago as your words or actions
slowly stripped and weakened our bonds

I love, but it is a memory,
a reel I know is there
but a movie I never care to see anymore

I sit here, listening to this song
'Indifference'
I am transported back in time
to where I let it all go and became myself
It moves me to write these purging thoughts

I forgive you,
but mostly I forget you.
I am not trying to hurt your feelings,
the distance is just too great
and I do not care enough to try
even though you do

A child is meant for loving,
nurturing and treasuring
Be careful what you push away,
it (I) may never come back

I am absolved
I forgive myself
for not wanting you
for not needing you
in my life
I regret nothing, not me, not you,
not then, not now

Love is the answer, and I give it to myself