I never thought in my whole life
i would begin to hate the next day
And the next one
And the next one
And the next one
I cannot bear to sleep
I cannot bear to eat
I cannot bear to be awake
10 years of daily me
10 years of daily you
You just looked at me and called me a one night stand that never ended
You had my child and say you never trusted me
you gave me your time, your love, your body
Now you scream at me with your silence
You scream at me with your silence
Echoing the trite statements below
'i was never right for him'
'he deserves better'
'maybe my heart is black'
'he's a really great guy'
'theres something wrong with me'
I live each day in complete and total hell
I cant even function when i ought to sell
Gold, silver, platinum shoes
I cant win I can only lose
U set me up long ago
Decided to mess me up nice and slow?
Took u out for ice cream then to a show
When did u decide to go?
I sink into the abyss
Hating the stanza above
Hating every waking moment
USCREAM EVERY DAY WITH YOUR SILENCE
U scream at me with your silence
Today another man massaged you and you paid him
You even came and told me it felt great
you will NOT draw out my aggression~NO
SCREW U BEAU U ARE MY SERVANT
SCREW U BEAU U R MY SERVANT
U R LOWER THAN THAT
Into the abyss deeper and deeper
As she screams at me constantly nonstop
shrilly at the top of her lungs
With her avoidance and her silence
You don't want to be me today
jon lennon in the background sings 'Yesterday'
I should be so lucky....
Beau Golden
wow...this is so hard to witness, but so beautifully written...great work.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
You have really opened your heart here Beau, your pain is obvious in this well written piece that holds the readers attention 10 for this Lynda xx