Unanimous Loser* (2009) Poem by David Joel Rodriguez

I know you are not coming back completely
I think I have really made you run off this time
You might or may decide to come and see me
Only your body will as your heart will decline

I sit on a bench with my hands covering what I faced
Wandering my mind through the heart felt thoughts
or fixing issues as I had thought of them thoroughly
Wishing I hadn't yelled, knowing I should've embraced

Many many times I go though this benighting pain
Ignoring or denying my moral obligations over again
Having to lose my characteristics of soothing love
and rearranging its warmth with a churning shove

I hope I come to realize the damage I've caused you
Nothing will ever replace the happiness you gave me
There's no word I can say that will change your view
Broken glass, fire, and hands together, on my knees
Will never amount to the forgiveness that I may seek