uncertainty compounded
into rejection most certain
is not what i hoped for
for the final curtain.
pushed into a corner
with no place to go
you forced me to silence
it's all that i know.
i wanted your comfort
and someone to hold
i wanted to know you
and stories untold.
i wanted to see you
just one last time
to put things right
with reason and rhyme.
it wasn't to happen
with games we were playing;
how easier, it seems
to know you're not staying.
i won't have to wonder,
to ponder, and doubt
i won't have to wonder
what you're about.
yet again i'm being left
alone and with whys.
this pattern annoys me
so many goodbyes.
i feel i can't move
i'm frozen in space,
don't know what to do
- not sure what i face.
so silly, it seems,
speculation galore.
i want answers now
i want nothing more.
the answers won't come
i know that now
i'll cope and get over it
i'll figure out how.
you walked into my life,
i'm happy you did.
you restored my hope
and feelings i hid.
(Kuala Lumpur,19 March,2005)
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem