Understanding This Feeling Poem by ashley roberts

i have had my tears locked up for so many years

hurt and hate in me caused so many untold fears

i am unsure of what i am thinking but its so unclear

i just get the feeling that my life's end is so near

calling on a angel to protect me and to save my soul

praying that god is real hoping he can make me whole

i have no way of understanding my life i have no control

i keep wishing that one day my heart will start to grow

it feels like its getting smaller dispersing with my soul

my minds getting distant everyday that i get more old

i need to understand this feeling if i don`t i`m going to fold.