Untitled Poem by Ashley Bowen

You do things that hurt me
without even knowing
But how could you
I hide my emotions
till nothing is showing
I may not be who you want me to be
I just wish you could see things differently
The pressure you put on me, to be someone else
eats away at me all day, cause I just wanna be myself
Do you understand the pain that I feel inside?
Did you know that sometimes I cry at night?
You never encouraged me with my hopes and my dreams
at least that's the way that it seems
You have no idea what it takes to fight the urges
When things get hard more pressure emerges
I've thought of just ending it all
But I never took the leap cause I never wanted to fall
All the hurtful things you do to me
Bite right through me
Every time you do something, I'm losing a piece of me
I count on my friends to help me through it all
But I don't want them to be at my beck and call
They mean so much to me
more then you'll ever be
But I guess you still want me to say I'm sorry
Even though I did nothing wrong
So...
I'm sorry that I'm not what you want me to be
cause I know you just see what you wanna see
I'm sorry I don't have your beliefs
I'll believe what I want
No matter what you do
I will never be the same as you
I'm slipping off the edge
And I'm hanging onto something that is no longer there
You make me feel alone
like I'm so small
And you don't care
Have you ever cared?
Are you so unaware of the things you put me through everyday?
I'm scared cause you've never been there
Not when I really needed you
to stand by my side
and dry the tears that I cried
I don't care if you ever accept me
I don't need your acceptance to go on in this world
But don't you worry, cause I'll be gone sooner than you know
out of your life forever, if you want me to be
You don't have to visit me, or even call me on the phone
And don't you worry, cause I ain't ever coming home.