Up Until Now.. Poem by Shannon Nicole

As I sit along side of a few people,
My eyes begin to shake.
They ask me what I think about something,
In reality, they could care so much less.
I'm the quiet one of our 'group, '
I only answer when directly spoken to.
I don't give out ideas,
Because someone always thinks of one to beat mine.

As I look into their eyes,
My head begins to spin.
Thoughts racing,
One after the other,
In a swift motion, none of them fail to break me down.

As I stand alone, but still within a large group,
I feel as though I'm the only one there,
The only one that cares.
I could say something and they wouldn't like it,
I'd be ignored until they need something.
I'm not much of a push-over,
But I can't stand to see someone sad.

As I smile to myself,
It seems to scare everyone around me.
I could look around and no one notices me,
Not until I jump up and down,
And say 'I'm here, I'm here.'
Still not a soul cares enough to tell me hello in the mornings,
Ask me how my day has been going or went.

Such a simple face pulled from a crowd,
And he chose me.
He chose the most caught up in weaknesses kind of girl to be with,
And I am glad.
I honestly feel like the luckiest girl in the world,
Because I can say that he's not looking to hurt me,
He's looking to care.

[Thanks, Matt.]