Waiting To Understand Poem by Shilesha Johnson

I'm waiting to understand
what it is that I did
waiting to understand
why you even had kids
I'm waiting to understand
why you don't care
weather I am or aren't there
I'm waiting to understand
why I'm only one phone call away
and you will never pick up to call
or even ask about my day
I'm waiting to understand
why I haven't seen you in a year
why we haven't talked
why a mother daughter realtionship
is what we don't share
I'm waiting to understand
why we were never put first
why you only care about yourself
I'm waiting to understand
why you don't understand
that all you have caused us is pain
and shame
and made us feel as little as a grain
waiting to understand
wating for an explination
waiting for a relization
waiting for that determination
waiting for you to FIGHT this
because if you wanted
you could do it
I am waiting to understand
waiting for you to change
waiting for nothing
cause I see that you have always been
and will alwasys remain
this way
I'm just waiting to understand
cause I never have
but thank GOD
cause
I still have my DAD