Welcome To My Craziness Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

The shame, trying to tame the beast inside.
It can no longer hide.
It has lost the cover of darkness.
Like a sickness I must get rid of this.
Anger inward, blood spilling into the bathtub.
Just another attempt at a precious thing we call life.
Please say it will be alright.
Please say I haven't wasted to much time.
Being torn inside.
I know and welcome death.
Hes always been waiting contemplating anticipating how it will all end.
Hes not what i would call friend.
His whispers are mere poison.
They drive you to edge, then he says go ahead jump.
Quick and so painless.
Welcome to my craziness.
Its another Alice and wonder land.
Nothing makes any sense and its suppose to.
Playing guessing games of what I really want to do.
Destiny has been confused.
Slow and methodological are my thoughts.
Driven by urges i have yet to understand.
I see the plan
I can see your hand. I know your demands.
Feed the flame and fire with a fan of desire.
I only want the best for you.
And still i cant talk to you.
Because of a pact i cant retract.
Sworn to a twisted secrecy.
Blasphemy of myself to a infinity.
Pull the skin over my face.
Hide the disgrace.
Always smiling, when i should be one of misery and suffering.
No destain for anyone in this heart.
Even when its all falling apart.
I brush off the battle scars like their nothing.
Absolutely nothing.