What Are Feelings Poem by Dean Morris

Why do I feel, when my feelings bit me in the back
would i be better off to stop feeling all together
shutting out everyone i have ever loved
denying anyone access to my heart.
blocking it off before i even let it start
feelings
emotions
loneliness
self pity
what more is going to have to be added to my list
of things that i have felt, things i wish would never exist
i have been put through way to much in a life time
i feel that it couldn't possibly get worse
am i to always feel down, this must be a curse
my friends tell me that i need to keep a straight face
keep my head up and never feel like I'm out of place
i really do try but if i hide what I'm feeling then I'm living a lie
and to top off the list
the one girl i like informs me she likes someone else
she knows i like her, she doesn't even ask me how i felt
i am slowly beginning to understand
i will never know what its like to love someone
and to be loved back
i feel as if my heart is being stepped on every second of the day
whoever is involved with my life is slowly walking away
they don't care about me, or what i have to say
so where do i stand now
when will i eventually fall
should i restart my life, reteach myself how to crawl
pick up the pieces of my life that have be broken
put the puzzle together, and say what has not been spoken
feelings
emotions
loneliness
self pity
is what i need to put down the drain
wash it away
learn to live my life again
in the most simplest way