What Have I Done Poem by Emily MacGregor

What have I done,
I have killed the only true sun,
The sun that used to shine,
The one that kept us in line,
I knew that he gave me the sign,
That told me to stop,
What have I done,
I put him in a stun,
I took his heart and gave it a stab,
I should be thrown in a lab,
Let them burn me alive,
With no chance to revive,
I'm disgusted with myself,
Like a monster hating itself,
What have I done,
Where the F*** is my dads gun,
Put it to my head,
Fill the ground below me with red lead,
I just blew my final chance,
He told me his final stance,
Please God,
Strike me with your lighting rod,
Why did I do it,
I should have quit,
Now he's truly done,
Its weighing on me like a ton,
I need a second chance,
I promise I'll never advance,
I know i'm to blame,
and I feel so ashamed,
Please I need another flame,
I'll call him by name,
And never act like its a game,
I'll keep my feelings tamed,
Make me deaf and lame,
Let me burn in hell,
Just let him dwell,
and think of me,
Get him to see,
Please I need the fire,
To stop this spiral,
Or put me to death,
But let my last breath,
Show my true love,
And show him the dove...