What She Went Through {very Sad} Poem by jade hall

He held me down,
Iwas scared at first.
He said if I screamed,
he'd make it worse.
He didn't care about what he did,
It didn't bother him I was just a kid.
14 and scared,
and no one around.
It was the worse pain in the world,
and I couldn't make a sound.
He hit me and hit me,
He thought it was funny.
But he couldn't just hurt me by himself,
He saved some for his buddy.
I just went through it and through it,
until they were done.
9 hours of pain, I just wish I had a gun,
So I could end my pain,
and I didn't have to suffer.
20 year old me going at me for hours.
And all they could do is laugh like it was a joke,
shoving themselves down my throat,
trying to make me choke.
They made bets like it was a game,
not even caring that I was in pain.
I was crying and bleeding,
but to them it didn't matter,
all I could hear was the sound of their laughter.
By the end I didn't even care anymore,
I wanted to die,
I just gave up I couldn't even cry.
He made me swear I'd never tell,
and if I did he'd really put me through hell.