Whats My Fate? Poem by Concetta Salter

Tragedy oh tragedy, you’ve landed in my heart.
You took the love I had for life and tore it all apart.
Existence is a hollow place I know I don’t belong.
Everything that once was right is slowly going wrong.
Fading into nothingness I know it won’t be long.
My life, my hope, and all my dreams, will someday soon be gone.
Why am I still smiling, when all I feel is pain?
Why am I still waking up to face a lonely day?
Why am I still writing this, this poem that spills my heart?
Why am I still waiting for my life to finally start?
Heaven is forbidden to all those who take their life.
I’d rather dig the hole to hell than breathe another lie.
Lying to the ones I love and saying that I’m fine.
Smiling for the publics view, while deep inside I cry.
How am I still living with the lies I’ve come to tell?
Earth is not the place for me, my place resides in hell.
I’ll never find my special one, the soul mate of my dreams.
He’s never heard my cries for help, he’s never heard my screams.
Now I ask the lord himself to do what he must do.
Take me in, or burn me down, that choice is up to you.