When Did I Get Old Poem by Spanner Thegob

When did I get old

Dying changed nothing,
Life is pain,
Pain is life,
Give up.
Time to shut up!
My greatest surprise?
Learning I was ordinary.
My greatest disappointment?
Knowing i was ordinary!

Thoughts, trapped in a tight space
Wedged between what was and what is,
travel to a distant place
where words don't apply,
Where logic wanders past awareness.
Where Truth evaporates
As faint embers of long rembered rituals flicker at deaths campfire.
Where Ego masquerading as Humility
hides in plain view.
So grand this suffering.
Where Pain transforms over time,
Where nostalgia, Jaded, becomes contacted where Truth and memory Tangled give way to acceptance,
Where acceptance Quietly gives way to lonliness,
Why?
Because I no longer crave your approval.
Your Opinion is a destination no one wants to go to,
go Down among the fearful,
their silence betrays them,
Clouds whisper to passing beams of sunlight
' we are so ordinary! '
Death changed everything!
Death changed nothing!
Time to shut up.
Time to sleep.


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