Why? Poem by Julio Hernandez

Why did I think there was no way out
Why was my mind filled with lies and doubt
Why’d I lose my courage, love, laughter, and sight
Why’d I see the dark and none of the light

Why didn’t I know the sun would rise
Why was I afraid to open my eye’s
Why didn’t I think about the days of tomorrow
Why was I feeling so much pain and sorrow

Why did I hold that gun to my head
Why’d I pull the trigger and shot myself dead
Why are all these people crying by my bed
Why are they asking god why they said what they said

Why aren’t they cheering don’t they see what I see
This is what they prayed would happen to me
Now im so lost I don’t know what to do
Because the damage is done my life is now through

There's no rewind or restart, life ain’t a game
You screw up once and it’s never the same
So when my soul went to heaven high in the sky
All I said to god was please tell me why