Why? ? ? Poem by Jessie Car

As I sit and watch you destroy your life I wonder, why?
I don’t see what you see when you are flying high,
When you sit and tell me about what you did last night,
I search for the right,
I think until the dead of the night,
But when I find nothing right in what you did I sit and cry,
I cry for what you aren’t, and what I so long for you to be,
If things were different maybe you and I could be,
I wish that things were different,
That our friendship wouldn’t come to this crossroads,
Even though I don’t want it to be, what little we have might corrode,
And even though you see the tears fall from my face,
You keep on talking, them not leaving a trace,
So, I still keep on wondering why?
And even though it hasn’t helped any yet, I kneel by my bed and pray,
I pray that God will wash the filth from your life and help you see the way,
The next day you walk and talk beside me like nothing is wrong,
And even though my heart longs for you to do right you still will only do wrong,
So I still sit here, wondering how much longer you will keep doing the things you do,
Until one day you too will wonder why?