Why Do I Still Try? Poem by Alexis R.

Why do I still try?
Try to feel wanted,
Try to keep friends that don’t want me,
To sing out my feelings when nobody’s there to listen,
Wait, no there is somebody,
But she’s one of the few,
Of the few that actually care,
Of the few that would cry if I weren’t here tomorrow,
One of the few that would even notice I wasn’t there,
Everybody else thinks they have it bad,
Try being me,
Try waking up every morning knowing that there are only a handful of people wanting me there,
Try sitting in class going unnoticed waiting for attention,
Try living a life without a family,
Don’t tell me your sob stories about your minor problems,
Again I say try being me,
If u were me u would see,
Why I need these pills to help me through these damn days of life,
Why I can no longer hold my head up high,
Why I need friends to help me through,
But there’s nobody there,
That’s why I have to cry myself to sleep,
That’s why I’m not always the perky fun loving Mexican,
You expect me to smile,
But all that comes out is a faint whisper,
Help me…