Worst Night Of My Life Poem by black heart

The other night was one of the worst in my life. It was so saddening, so confusing, so painful, and just so lonely. I never thought that you would ever cause me so much pain. I never thought you would be the one to hurt me so. You gave up on us. You were ready to let me go. You promised to hold me forever and never let go, so what happened? I know you've been going through a lot, I know that you've been under pressure, but why did you give up? Why did you let go? Now you say you panicked, you say you didn't know, you say you really love me, but now it's me that's insecure. When I said I loved you, when I promised to be forever yours I meant it. But did you? When we promised to get through every obstacle together I stuck by that promise, but where were you? Did you really mean it when you said that our age difference didn't matter to you, or were you just lying to me because that's what it feels like. Your excuses are full of 'what ifs', but how can we base our future on what might happen? Do you still even want us to have a future? I really do still love you. I really do care about you. But I don't think I can trust you with my heart anymore. How can I? look where trusting you has gotten me. In a place of pain, in a place of endless tears, in a place where I can't trust. I want us to be happy again, I really do but how can we be if all this pain is still here. I know you're hurting too and I wish I could take all our pain away. But what can I do, if I can't even stand looking at you without all the pain and tears flooding back. I know you're trying to make everything right again, I know you want only the best. You say 'time heals all wounds', but I'm just not sure that it's true. And I just don't know what to do because I want to be with you and I really don't want this to be the end of us. Do you?