Worth While Poem by Adam Smitherman

I wanna find a girl.
That makes me me feel like everything I see is real.
I wanna make her laugh.
I wanna see her smile.
I wanna find a girl that makes this life worth while.

I see my life passing by me at the speed of light.
I'm waking up screaming in the middle of the night.
I feel so invisible.
This life seems so unlivable.
People try to make it seem so simple.
But it's not.
It's just another crazy thought.
This is not the way life was suppose to be.
I'm trying damn it can't you see! ?
I have no more life.
I ended me with a knife.
And now I can end this seemingly endless strife.
L.O.V.E
I'm trying to figure out what that word means to me.
I've been through hell.
Been through worse.
This pain inside me just keeps getting worse.
I never wanted it to be like this.
All I wanted was to have a life full of bliss.
I just can't get rid of this sickness.
I can't get out of this darkness.
I'm finally done.
So screw this!
I guess it wasn't meant to be.
And that's how's it's suppose to be!

I am done!
I give up.
This pain that I feel is the only thing that is real.
Now I can't laugh.
I don't wanna smile.
I want to end this now!
Cause this life was suppose to end suicidle.