You Are Gone Poem by Balambal Suryanarayanan

Tears well up my eyes as I think
The way our smiles disappeared in a wink
Well, couldn't have expected quite more
For all you did was run and get sore
Just because you forgot to untangle the chain that connected you and your past
You run behind those coaches every day apart
I asked you to try and detach yourself from those bogeys that never stop
But you seemed to find more pleasure in sticking with them and doing gallop
I don't know how long it's gonna take to balance your emotional lever
All I know is I lost the true-you forever

I think of comforting you as you lay there crumbled
But you kept pushing me away with those curses that the mouth mumbled
The time bygone has made you pisanthrophobic
"Trust me- it's hard. But I'll help you get by", is all I say to stop those memories that are anaerobic
You list points to make me understand why you were this way
"I don't want that, forgetting the dark helps you heal", I say
By yourself, you have just two hands that can hold only much
With your loved ones, you have more to share and the melancholy comes down as such
Cut the strings for ‘twill help you salve
Cause I want the vuslat to happen to reunite the halve
But you don't listen as the toxicity pulls you in
And before I can blink you are gone forever

I lay there, the tears streaming down my countenance
And my broken heart and struggling disposition shuffling between imprudence and penance
The dangerous control the past has on you has made you unstable
You are neiodystic and every emotion empties itself out at a take with lot a ramble
I try to Parastin you and hold you close, to feel the breathe
But all I sense is emptiness with progressing unease
You have been sprinting behind that all these years
Only to get lost and stab me with spears

The house is on fire and you are the only one that can shut that out
For the indifference of your kith and kin that shattered your heart was what made it sprout
And the burns that arise messes up anything and everything
You are bitter and all that makes the darkness strong becoming a pawn of your wretched past
Without having the tiniest sanguine that, things might go differently at last
The place you dwell now, is a vicious one
That destination keeps pulling you in and hurts the ones you never wanted to hurt, hun
Everyone's genes gonna be filled with Altruists and Free-runners all the time
But you need to understand that your pain also matters to me more than a dime
You always cry and never smile
And it is all that takes for my heart to sink, and see you so vile
Those facial exertions needs to reach your eyes
And stop ruing the day you were born and paralyze
Every time a philippic ensues
My heaven becomes hell for everything you chuse
I look into your eyes and find ways to stop the catharsis that's making you catatonic
But my love, you are gone... forever with a lacuna in my heart that will remain chronic