You Bled, You Bled.... Poem by Ratan Bhattacharjee

I didnt mean what I said
I was always so afraid.....
When I see the wind blowing
I am scared to discover its fury
My life is so cursed, I never hoped
Anything good.... I have lost faith in life
In Goodness and in the everlasting 'ya'.....
Last night what I said I didnt mean to say it
When I talked to you, I talk to myself
I never mince my words....I felt as if
I were talking to my other self...
A daughter or a son is the better self of a parent
I find myself in you.....
Dear mine for ever, dont get hurt by my words,
This night is my night for weeping....
My dear one got hurt, yes, she bleeds inside
How can I curse myself? Cut my tongue?
Or lay sleepless all the night?

O God, I am so garullous,
Why I talked so much nonsense
One reason is I cant hide my fears
Which eat into my heart
I bled and I wanted to show my bleeding
And my words hurt you so much dear mine
Forgive me if you can, Forgive me soon

None can wish more that you smile
Than I crave for it all my life
Your smile, and your smile it is all the time
I want .... But each time I made you weep
My plans, my words, and my rudeness....
Sorry my dear, sorry dear,
I wanted to share so much things to share....
I am sorry I could not....
My words, my poisonous words, yes last night
Did all the wounds, Your inside so cracked
I knew how sad you felt, I felt the same pain
I am so cursed to tell you my fears
I am so cursed, my dear

Forgive me if you can, forgive me
I am so sorry, you see.....