tina anderson Poems

In the darkness, in the cold,
Feeling torn and feeling old,
Constant falling, constant pain,
Been betrayed and full of shame.
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I am a lesbian.
That does not mean
that I am sick,
or I want to f*** every
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the scary thing is, i woke up today and i finally saw me through your eyes. and it dawned on me: i can't pretend anymore. i can't hide under itchy wool that swallows my skin. i cannot cower into the greedy hollows of my mind or fade between the creases in my calloused palms.

because when i woke up, that's all i saw. i saw a girl collect her purple bruises, midnight shadows she carries beneath her foggy blue eyes. i saw her swing her toes, ankles, knees, thighs over the side of a swollen bed. the toes she wishes were less ordinary and more ballerina. the ankles that hold thin skin and thick regrets. the knees she does not trust and the thighs she will never befriend.
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When life makes you feel really down,
And there’s no one to tell you it’s alright,
You can’t help feeling you’re about to drown,
Or being enveloped by endless night.
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Why is it that when you come back into my life,
My heart feels ready to explode?
I loved you once; but not today,
Yet you continue to tempt me to the very edge.
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you see no mark upon my skin
you see no tear in my eye
you see no sign of pain
therefor I must not be in pain
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Im one of those girls who would be standing and killing a bug while all the other girls keep screaming.
I am one of those girls who would prefer sleeping on the loveseat than her bed.
I am one of those girls who played rough in their childhood and got scars and cuts in their arms and legs.
I am one of those girls who would be chillin at home, staring at the comp screen all day while those girls went out and partied while I wasnt invited.
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People don't want me to be me,
so they force me to be the person they want to see.
they don't see that their effect was reversed
or that my breaking point has been traversed.
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You swept me off my feet,
Promised me everything under the sun.
I fell so quickly & deeply in love,
But I never slowed down to think.
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I'm trying to strive for perfection
I'm dying in search for protection
I'm lying to hide my deceptions
But it's breaking me within.
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