Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer Poems

The art of making a girl feel special,
you got it, no doubts.
The art of using her and breaking her heart,
you master it too, no lies.
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the sun is merely bright
the clouds not one bit white
everything is falling apart
that's why you want to restart
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I guess the memories we shared meant nothing to you
The smiles and the gifts... all bullshit.
You're pulling away from me,
I can tell.
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Got me sitting here
staring at the phone
waiting for that phone call
or the text that will make my day
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Dreams of you and I got me thinking..
maybe you are the one for me.
I keep telling myself you're the one I deserve
the one that I should always want..
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I can see you at that corner...
selling these drugs
raindrops falling on your head
and a bottle of alcohol to help drain it down
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I remember the things that we used to do,
the talks, the walks, the dances, the get-aways..
the way that you made me feel good about myself
after I would cry about my insecurities.
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It's been a decade now.
A decade since the massive destruction
that killed 2,997 lives
411 of whom lost their lives in attempt to save others.
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Feels like I'm in the black hole
being sucked into a place I don't want to be
Oxygen is taking out
I'm finding it hard to breathe
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What more can I do
to make you realize I have fallen for you
What more can I say
just so your heart will come my way
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