# Allan Gerard

## ~66~

Awakened
So it begins, In the beginning there was thought
A thought to create my escape from this state
Of mind and being, evolving beyond
Only that which I see, to that which I dream

I did not create the laws, they are a part of me
Bound to my being, not bound by anything
Illuminated by the light which I have made
Extracted from the darkness, being it's origin

I think therefore I am
I will, with will that I speak
Patterns of life within my tones
Balanced by death in undertones, though bleak

Yet, fail to comprehend all I am

Everything good exists
Even the bad by my own hand

Does my left hand not know
What my right is doing?
Or is the left ticking away
While I remember my past time an again?

Within my right, which is right now
Moving forward into present-future by demand
You're an extension of who I am
With your will and mind, you'll create as I have

I saw the solution to a problem I created
Calculated the risks and split into fragments
Multiple imaginations designing within my imagination
Working together to bring order to my once chaotic existence

Free will isn't free, even I dreamed of evolution
Your life is the key, to an ascending revolution

I love myself enough to grow an purge the pain
You exist in the purging moments
Is that you must do the same

Submitted: Saturday, March 08, 2014
Edited: Monday, March 10, 2014
User Rating:
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Topic(s): life

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## Poet's Notes about The Poem

Since a few people have asked in e-mail or in comment I figure I will go ahead and put out a few reasons and some information about the title of this poem and why it is 66.

In number theory, (a perfect number) is a positive integer that is equal to the sum of its proper positive divisors, that is, the sum of its positive divisors excluding the number itself (also known as its aliquot sum) . Equivalently, a perfect number is a number that is half the sum of all of its positive divisors (including itself) 6 would be the starting point in this series

A (triangular number) or triangle number counts the objects that can form an equilateral triangle. A triangular number is the number of dots composing a triangle with n dots on a side, and is equal to the sum of the n natural numbers from 1 to? The sequence of triangular numbers can start in a series being 1,3,6,10,15,21,28 and so on and so forth.

To clear this up I already had 1 person ask in an e-mail if it had to do with free masons or the number of the beast which I got a good chuckle at but no it doesn't.

I have no particular belief system other than in truth and I believe multiple truths can simultaneously exist running parallel with each other at the same time but also sometimes truths like everything over time become more and more convoluted.

And to clear it up the actual number of the beast isn't 666 like some people might like you to believe it is (Six hundred threescore and six) 600/60/6 do the research and find out for yourself. I am just a guy that loves numbers and how they interact. Also to dispel any other ideas people may get let me put and end to that by bestowing some more current knowledge upon you.

A fragment from the oldest surviving copy of the New Testament, dating to the Third century, gives the more mundane 616 as the mark of the Antichrist. Where more conventional versions of the Bible give 666 as the “number of the beast, ” or the sign of the anti-Christ whose coming is predicted in the book’s apocalyptic verses, the older version uses the Greek letters signifying 616.

“This is very early confirmation of that number, earlier than any other text we’ve found of that passage, ” Dr. Aitken said. “It’s probably about 100 years before any other version.”

As well the world was created in 6 days according the current bible we have at our disposal for right now.

In the matrix there is a scene where Neo = the 1(one) talks to the
Architect being the creator where the architect says... The matrix is older than you know. I prefer counting from the emergence of one integral anomaly to the emergence of the next, in which case, this is the sixth version.

To which Neo responds... (in one of the monitors that has calculated an infinite number of responses he could give) There were 5 created before me? Along with there are only two possible explanations: either no one told me, or no one knows.

That being said this is my 66Th poem on this site and I just love number & word play.6 is one of my favorite numbers

Keep Poetry Alive!
Allan Gerard

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• Anoushka Sinha (4/20/2014 4:10:00 PM)

this poem is stupendous, enthralling and so thought-provoking... after reading it i sit in silence just speachless... bravo! ! (Report) Reply

• Shahzia Batool (4/13/2014 1:35:00 AM)

Reading the poem, the biographical note and the detailed poet's note explaining the title with reasons show the fact that you did the right thing of leaving the school at 8th grade, as life taught you in a more wonderful manner not in the range of any institution! Keep poetry alive with a strong mission and vision! ! ! (Report) Reply

• Marcus Mckinley (4/2/2014 12:05:00 PM)

you are merely a speck of dust folding in upon its self. like the rings of Adele finding no limit to the bounds of pre-existance and subsequent ratios of self. Guiding life towards right or left results from listening only to your true self which ever one that is. (Report) Reply

• Daniel Brick (3/19/2014 5:56:00 AM)

That's a fascinating, illuminating and altogether exuberant description of the number symbolism of your poem. I read it slowly and made certain my inner voice pronounced each word; it's so easy to just race through a technical description and miss both the literal details and the figurative import they can have. I cannot claim to comprehend all of what I read because numbers are simply not a strong suit with me. B U T I realize they play an important role in philosophy and also poetry, so thanks for being thorough! I posted a message too. (Report) Reply

• Soulful Heart (3/17/2014 5:27:00 AM)

Purging moments indeed.....lovely flow of thoughts in words....but the notes at end made the poem fly away so
From my head....so excuse me i will stick to the poem and let the explanation of d title take flight far away from me...: -) (Report) Reply

• Rajesh Thankappan (3/12/2014 10:44:00 AM)

Free will isn't free, even I dreamed of evolution
Your life is the key, to an ascending revolution.

I too agree with you that free will isn't free in many ways. What we assume to be 'Free Will' depends upon the circumstances we were born into and influences we were familiarized with . Thus there are various things that remote controls us and plays a pivotal role in shaping us and defining our destiny. A nice poem riding on probing insights. (Report) Reply

• Kevin Patrick (3/12/2014 8:15:00 AM)

Its about being in a perfect state, one harmonious with one self and the universe around you, (granted that's a cheat cause your note referred to constructed numbers) , but ignoring the title and just concentrating on the work, to me this is about the power of self actualization, we are not born not once but multiple times, as we learn and grow and become familiar with ourselves and the world around us, shaping ourselves to be constructed to the dimensions we fit in. It seems to me that you have found the balanced state, but be carful there are always negative numbers. Word of advice to the people who read this, ignore the title and just read the work! (Report) Reply

• Fiona Schwartzinoff (3/11/2014 9:36:00 PM)

I hate numbers, but now you make me fascinated with 6! Haha! I knew about the whole anti-Christ thing, etc. But the other stuff was pretty neat. thanks for that note.
As for the poem itself... I thought it was very true to yourself. It seemed organic and original and I enjoyed the idea of a dream forming in the mind. The soul searching is enchanting! (Report) Reply

• Valsa George (3/11/2014 12:34:00 AM)

As a person averse to numbers, though I read the entire (tedious) note, I didn't comprhend much other than the fact that this is your 66th poem and that you love the number 6

Everything good exists
Even the bad by my own hand...... To a great extend, we are responsible for our own fate! No external force can be blamed for our misfortune! ! A great write! !

• Savita Tyagi (3/10/2014 6:25:00 PM)

I am not a number person and can't say much about the title but enjoyed the poem very much. Loved the last few lines. A good answer to ones who complain why the pain was created. Thank you so much for sharing. (Report) Reply

• Hazel Durham (3/10/2014 5:53:00 PM)

Intense soul searching in your complex mind that reaches out to embrace the present, the past and the future!

• Jessica Dehn (3/10/2014 1:03:00 PM)

Love it! I so enjoy the way you write complex yet simple for a soul to grasp and feel. To truely understand. Thank you! (Report) Reply

• Vincent Moore (3/9/2014 6:09:00 PM)

Complexity is often disturbing to some. I like how you arrived at the title, a simple number can achieve much curiosity. Well done dear poet. I remember the route 66 and have been on its long twisting highway, it has a lot to offer. (Report) Reply

• Kanav Justa (3/9/2014 7:38:00 AM)

.. again a complex poem.... your way with words is terrific... nice write.. (Report) Reply

• * Sunprincess * (3/9/2014 12:53:00 AM)

.........not sure why this poem has a number for a title....sure I must have missed a subtle clue...you penned a very nice poem with some interesting thoughts....going to read a second time maybe I will find the clue....thanks for the invite...enjoyed.. (Report) Reply

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