A Friendship Remembered Poem by John Thorkild Ellison

It's so long since we were friends
But I have never forgotten you!
How I long to search
The dark recesses of your mind,
To pick the lock of your memory
And find what lies behind
Those pale, blue eyes, coloured like smoke
And tinged with sadness of cigarettes!
We used to spend our lunch-hours together
In fair and in stormy weather -
I must have been blind
To think I could win your affection
By being sensitive and kind,
Comforting you on the
Breakdown of your latest sad affair
And being a faithful shoulder to cry on.
Did I think that when it was over
I would somehow become your substitute lover?
I probably did,
I was full of neurotic fears;
Now I just want you back
To hold and to touch.
After all these lonely years
When nothing seems to have happened,
I long to bathe your genitals in tears.