A Poet's Natural Substance, Self-Evolving Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Chasing after afterthoughts
Mind running as fast as it can go
Warp speed, Will I succeed?
Or will all eventually get ignored?



Who am I?
Someone not like anyone else
A curse to the sum of many, a something to some
Staring as a voyeur of silent screams, Immuring



Unknown feelings
The world knows not this earnest antiquity
No sweating the paltry things
Just want something in the value of quint understanding



Let me be at least
Better than nothing at all
I have nothing solid of value
Just a soul dreaming of better things ahead



Forget it, No need to try
Mind slowing down
So much change within
If only you knew where I have truly been



Anxiety, The plague of these thoughts
Missed so many things
Caught onto euphoria's enemy dysphoria
Far too long, And here I am, Surprise!



Some thought of me crazy
Some did not see me at all
Why did I care so much what others thought?
If only I was carless in my own life's resolve



Nothing is over
All has just begun
Just a hard journey ahead
Striving to be better than ever before
I am slowly forgiving myself
For the things I have never done
Still young at heart
Old in this mind's third eyed envision



So flawed and full of error
That is what I am
Proudly I stand
Better than I have ever been




Ignore me, See me
It does not matter
I am here in true form
Guiding myself for a much better tomorrow



With eyes or without other eyes to see
This path is my own choosing
No matter where I go from here
I will never be a clone for anyone's amusement




What is an ordinary life anyhow?
A limited quest for mass approval



Walking amongst current ponderings
In the philosophy of my own choosing
On a steady pace, I will succeed
No matter what eyes will ever want to seize


Who am I?
A person who I myself wants to be



Love me, hate me
Give attention or ignore
I do my best to live freely
In thoughts that may be blurring


Calm as can be
Worth more than any cheap thrilling


Never hate on a Man who lives his life his own way, freely


I have never been more proud of myself than right now
In fact I am winning with confidence
In the war that has made me feel so much better than ever before



If one never thought I never had it in me
They never knew me
Or tried knowing who I really am


Welcome to my universe
Would you like another free tour?
Next time you will see way much more!
I keep growing within; my self-evolution will never end


Society, I will never be your slave


Cheers to a poetic natural high
The substance of self-evolving