And Then Tears Poem by Pedro Cescon

I tried to calm down
Focusing in staying still
But my face beared frown
Sadness was all I could feel

And my fists closed tight
And my throat swallowed dry
And I was losing the fight
To manage to hide my cry

As my hiccups commenced
I was caught in despair
And everyone must've sensed
I wouldn't be up to repair

And I was growing so sad
Because I wasn't willing
A tear over there to be shed
Nor to share of my feeling

And by time all realized
Their blood froze in their veins
Didn't know if should be despised
For showing my deepest stains

But I decided to lose them all
And focus solely in my own
And to stop trying to stall
Those that I would've known

For if I was one to suffer
Why should I suffer for them?
I only needed to be tougher
And stop having me to condemn

And as I did let it flow
I saw matter in none of those
Those around me, as so
Were being way far from close

I didn't need anyone
Of those that blamed me
Because of my lack of atone
Or because my way of be

Painful, but a pain sole mine
When I left aside my fears
And my courage released my whine
Because I let to flow all my tears