Anxiety Poem by robert keaty

Anxiety




Personalized experience

What is anxiety

Can it be explained

Can it be understood

The minute by minute

daily experience

Is anxiety in its simplistic form just FEAR

How to survive being afraid for 52 years

How to live with fear but not let anybody know

Does it show

How to speak understanding about feelings...

This is why I sleep so much

Why I seek out sleep

A brain at rest. Asleep

Thoughts I have that are in no way good for my body

A tiny constant stabbing if you will




FEAR

Of everything ahead of me

So common that it doesn't always register mentally

It just attacks my body

A sensation of unease

Manifesting in body heat

Body Heat...The worst

A horrible companion

It will be what kills me

All of it/wrapped up together like a bag over the head




Anxiety/Fear/Shame

What is shame

Fear of you knowing me

The irrational self awareness of me

You will not like me

You will point at me

You will be disappointed




People

You scare me so

Not knowing what you will do

Not knowing what you will say




Anxiety/Fear/Shame/Sensitivity

What is sensitivity

To feel more than to know

To hear more than is said

To see more than is visible

To replay when it has ended

To search for more than is found

To fear more than is real

To say less than is needed

To mourn more than is lost




I am not too sensitive

I am me

I am not too anything

You are not less anything

You are you

Meet me halfway




To Think

Thinking is the dog chasing the tail

Exhaustion wills out

To Sleep

So much energy to simply exist

I am not weak

I am tired




Robert Keaty