Believe Poem by william cunningham

I wish I could keep believing
But I can't now that I know you are gone
Maybe I'll have hope
But I remembered to have hope I need belief
And your gone
My belief has been washed away
Like the dry throat your body presents
Now I'm feeling ready
Even tho I know I'm not steady
I should of told myself slow and steady wins the race
But I'm a nut case
So I cut to the chase
My belief is washed up
Dried out like a dessert
And I swear it actually hurts
I need some air
But you gave me space
My heads gonna blow before I ace
I really was a waste of space
So I slowed down with the dream chase
And I started taking and braking
I couldn't keep re-making
They'll keep snaking
Until the fact is I'm gone
When I'm no longer a threat
My belief will be gone
I won't be able to believe again
Because I'll probably be in pen
So I guess I better run to Kent
Chill there waiting for a new life to start
But then I'll have to stop going to the park
Because it brings back memories of you
Laughing and playing
I miss the person telling this story
As once it was a worry
Now I've done bad I can't stop saying sorry
I just want to believe I can run free
But I feel like I've been tied down to this tree
This bumble bee stinging me in the face
I was already on a chase
I thought there was no punishment for not having faith
But that's why you can't have everything
Because you believe that you'll be a millionaire when your young
But you forget you'll be called young wild and free
So I guess people rarely see
The real figure inside you
We have to imagine there's a path way to guide us
Even if we have to take the train and a bus
It doesn't matter
As long as we climb the ladder
And reach the top of the chain
We could travel the world and visit Spain
But this is only if you just believe
Something that I don't have the key of
I could be making money while keeping cool
But then people might find out and turn it into a brawl
Necks being broke
Some lives have gone up in smoke
Disbelief is one way to fail
You may not be bad but you still could go jail
Just keep believing until your dreams come clear
You might see someone famous appear
But the question deep inside your eyes are unreadable
But we know there understandable
So let's go to a carnival
And keep believing till I'm feeling free
So I can flow like the sea
Just in a misery state
One that I could be offered up as bait
By an ex-mate
Its all hate
They lost their belief as well
But I don't see how I fall into the picture
It should of went up in flames
Instead it got put out by a waterfall
Where there's a will there's a way
But I didn't want to stay
So I took my disbelief and walked away
I thought to myself that this will all fade
And I'll be hitting it in on tv
Instead of being in this misery
But I don't believe anymore
To me everything has become unbelievable
I may of lost friends as well as my belief
But I'll keep on trying to bring it back
I feel like I'm being hacked
Without my belief I won't be able to continue building up my stack
My belief is gone
My faith doesn't exist
I believe in nothing
I'm trying to believe
But no one can see
So I believe that I'll never believe again
So hard to believe