Broken / Split / Torn Poem by Peter Vector

Everything is so warped
And so wrong

My mind is a den of chaos
From which echoes a cacophonous song

I am losing myself in me
All of these thoughts feel like insanity

I am broken
I am split and torn

Sleepless nights I throw away
To bright screens, these hours fade into day

I try to shut it out, all the noise...
I shut down, and never confront the problems in me

I am broken
I am split and torn

In the calm of it all I want to cry
Have someone to lean on, but I don't know why

I want to hid away and let no one care
Get away from it all, just be me, just try

My life has not been so long,
And yet I feel devoid

It seems pointless
Hope always being being born to be destroyed
Dreams come alive to only be crushed
Goals and aspirations all turn to dust

But my problem isn't that, no,
I now with clear eyes can see

I problem in my life is simply me.

I am broken
I am split and torn

Someone, no, no one, help me
I'm lost inside this internal storm
Consuming all that I wish to be

I am broken
I am split and torn
Nothing like I was before.