Cheat No More Poem by Mehta Hasmukh Amathaal

I can cheat no more now
So far no good or no bad, any how
Now I am on last leg of journey
Yet I haven’t found the final key

I look back peacefully for honest answer
I have probed mind several times but got no where
It is bothering me from inner depth of conscience
I search for it but get no clue even by chance

Life has passed off like thunder storm
Many up and down still useful and warm
Life was very much enterprising and promising
I took right steps yet something went on missing

Now I have enough of time to think about past misdeeds
But what is use when enough of damage was done with greed
What have I not done to alienate the relatives and close people?
Most undeserving act on my part for fermenting the troubles

“Everything is fair in war and love” was followed with quite zeal
Eve though it was false pretext and far from real
I had lot more in store to hide or conceal
As I was blinded by glitter and went on to make the deals

I have amassed enough of wealth to last for generations
I take pride in having it but internally end up with suffocation
I know the method by which it was accumulated
I regret it now as it is not worth even to be related

It pinches me hard and destroys the inner conscious core
I should not have pursued or gone zealously any more
These are all crocodile tears and I have fully understood
So it hurts me more as it has provided me no good

I think of uneasiness and discomforts that has been inherited
Long nights are troubling for reasons not even merited
It is my own doing and bothers me in this stage
People may pardon with fine gesture as I have reached an old age

Life must be lived on nicely even if it is very hard to sustain
It makes you hard to carry on and maintain
Makes you stubborn not to loose the sight of goal
Rest everything can be put at rest by responding to the call