Coming Home Poem by jess schwarcz

That day you walked away,
I remember it like it was just yesterday.
The tears, the fears,
The pain of seeing you with her,
And the constant shiver whenever you were near

So many things were left unsaid.
So many things I wanted to know,
So many things that just flooded my head.
Yet right away to the army you stowed,
Like you had nothing to do, no where else to go.

Two years gone and you want me back,
To laugh and cry and head to our own “love shack”.
You said it was a mistake,
A mistake to let me go,
You’ll never know, no you’ll never know
The night you walked way from me,
I almost died from a tear-filled lake.

Should I trust you to come home,
And with you not to bring the pain?
Should I open the door for you,
From a 2 year leave, to bring in the rain?
Should I lift you aboard my lifeboat?
Not knowing what you’ll do? And if we’ll even float?

Endless time wishing you’d change your mind,
If somewhere the real reason you left me, you’d find.
Endless night, wondering if you’d find you way,
If tomorrow was the day you’d come back to me.
Endless days of drowning in your memory,
Trying to pick myself up, to fit together the pieces
Of yet another shattered heart.
To put myself back together from a faithful leap,
That as left as a mangled, and a tangled heap.

Now you want me back?
Your love to me you said could never compare,
To any other girl whom you’ve ever stared.
You’re weighted on your knees just a beggin’
Wanting me to take you in from long ago lovin’,
You want to come home and marry me,
You want a you and a me to all of the sudden become a “we”.

Can’t you see, I’m just a girl of seventeen,
These last two year, yes, it’s heaven and hell I’ve seen.
And I’ve dreamed of you coming home,
For me to never again be alone
But how do I know you won’t break my heart?
Through all of hell, you know I’d end up back at the start.

Should I trust you to come home,
And with you not to bring the pain
Should I open the door for you,
From a 2 year leave, to bring in the rain
Should I lift you aboard my lifeboat
Not knowing what you’ll do, and if we’ll even float

What do I do, where do I go
Cause right now I just don’t know
Someone call me help me
Cause right now I just don’t know